A week ago I was supposed to be a new freshman at Cal State Northridge. After spending almost two and a half years at a community college I was so fucking ready to get the hell out of there because I couldn’t take it anymore and I need a change of pace. Fast forward to today: I am broke, jobless, and I couldn’t get an approval for a student loan because my parents didn’t want to co-sign since I’m under 25 and they have their own debts they need to take care of.
So now I’m STILL stuck at this shitty, over-crowded college on a tight budget. My Financial Aid was put on hold till next semester (spring) because I fucked up in a class and my GPA suffered. When something like that happens, I think about my days in high school and what could have been if I wasn’t such a fucking asshole back then. If I would’ve stopped ditching class and stopped smoking and stopped drinking at 16, I would never ever be in this position.
Thinking about my past makes me so depressed and it stresses me the fuck out. Dont get me wrong, I’m proud of what I have accomplished so far being that I can go to the university that I’ve been dying to get into for so many years, IF I had some money. It feels good knowing that I’ve cleaned myself up (somewhat) since high school and I feel like I’m in a better state of mind. But I don’t know, I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and get a job so I can get the fuck out of community college.
I was reading reviews for different pizza restaurants and one said “Didn’t like it, they put too much cheese on it”… What the fuck is wrong with you? Too much cheese? I hope you enjoy hell you soulless being.
I’m sorry Febreeze.. I don’t believe the commercials where you take the two blindfolded women into a crack house and the kitchen with the decaying meat tray and they smell Yosemite National Park. Fucking bullshit.
“That’s the greatest thing I’ve ever seen. That’s the greatest thing I’ve ever seen. I could watch it for an hour on repeat slow mo fast mo backwards. Oh I could view it for not even days… weeks I could watch it. I could watch it so many times before it was old. And after it got totally old, I’d wait a month and it’d be fucking brand new again.”—Brandon DiCamillo - CKY 3 (via your-sweetest-torment)